Maaaane. I turn 18 in 3 motha fuckin days!!! OOoHhwEEEE!!!! I cant wait for this weekend!!! It's gon be tHrOwEd!!! lol. (compliments of lindsey) So, I'm goin and gettin muh nails did on Wed, even though I'm not going to homecoming, then after the contest Ima go shoppin then it's on to tha StRiP cLuB!!!! PaRtAy!!! Damn! It's gonna be some awesome shyt! But anywho!!! Adam and I broke up cuz basically he stopped caring about me, and he felt like were we'rent good enough for each other's friends. Even though he never wanted to chill with my friends and he never invited me to chill with his. So thats pretty much a whole bunch a bullshit. But w/e I just gotta shake dem hatas OFF!!! Cuz now I am single and DAMN am I gonna mingle!!! lol. But on tha flip, that is pretty fucked up of him. He couldnt be fuckin man enough to tell me that he stopped caring for me. I had to fuckin bring it up. boys suck. i think im just gonna go neutral. well, atleast for the time being. i dont want any fucking commitment!!! Im bout to turn 18 and i just want to have fun. So for all u boys who think ur men... leave me the fuck ALONE!!!! shit.... now that that's off my chest, I'm gonna go color my hair, because I feel pretty, oh so pretty, I feel pretty and witty and GAAAAY!!!! (not really) I just had to bust out in song. lol. Well damn, for all u people who give a big fat shit about my life, I'll be back.

                                                             much love </3 Jessica

 So, my weekend's been ight. We had the drumline party on friday, fun stuff! We got to initiate the fishies!!! lol. Then on Sat. we had our first football game. It was cool, I got to see my b/f runnin around in those tight lil pants!!! lol! But yea, like always we lost: 27-35. Then afterwards I went home and the power went out. It was kinda scary. But me and my mom lit sum candles and it was ok. I HATE THE DARK!!!! lol. I'm such a big baby. I didn't even go out, but it's ok. "Shake Shake ya OFF!!! Baby if that means I gotta shake ya off!" But i've just been sittin round the house all day bein lazy. I love it. So yea bout this whole locker b/s the BiTcH has "turned around" and....shit i dunno. fuck that hoe. i dont even care anymore. i just dont want any fuckin DrAmA!!! shiiiiit. w/e mmmk well ima holla atchu ppl. laters...

                                                                ~Jessica

 So today was alright... school, then practice, then homework. I guess that's the story of my life right now. At least tomorrow we don't have practice. Thank God!!!! It was so fricken hOtT today!!! The tan line on my feet is getting worse. haha. ehh wut can I say, I'm white! lol. I was lookin forward to hangin out with Adam after practice but I don't know cuz he's got sum homework... wut a fag! Oh well..... AnYwHo!!! The pep rally last night was krunk as fUcK!!! I got to play the house quake thingy and everyone was givin me props today at school. It was tight. I'm excited for the football game this Sat. Except the fact that we have to play our stupid ass show... but I get to watch my baby play sum foooosball!!! lol. But yea, I got sum homework of my own I gotta do. (I know....gay) But to all u loyal readers I'll be back! :)

                                                                  ~Jessica

 Yea. I thought my xanga days were over....but i fell back to conformity. So for all you wonderful nosey ppl who love to know about everyone else's life, here's a lil taste of mine. Summer was badass, I slept in everyday past twelve, went to the pool constantly, fell back in love then out again, and found a really great boyfriend. Oh yea....lets not forget about band. lol! I'm a drumline nerd, not a band nerd!!! Get it right! Since school has started, I've been busy with band practice, homework and tRyInG to keep up my social life....which has been working with me. It's so unreal that I'm finally a senior...really, I thought the day would never come. But it has and I'm so grateful b/c it's one yr closer to the end of one chapter and the beginning of the next. Well, I couldn't be more proud of myself b/c I've finally chosen my life over drugs. And really I feel soooooo great being sober, life isn't a blur anymore. I can actually wake up on time in the morning and be happy that the day has started and feel good. It's really too bad that I can't say the same for my sister...but that's a whole different story. Anyways... I've run out of things to say........so for all you loyal readers I'll be back!

                                                                     ~Jessica~

   DaMn! Stress is killin me! Not only am I stressed out b/c of school but b/c of band too! And the long practices and all the shit we have to do for band is giving me the stress for school. I just feel like sCrEaMiNg!!! I dont even feel like it's worth it anymore. I mean I try so hard to help out my section and the only one who gives a shit is Michelle, so y bother? We also have a d.m. who's head is so far up her ass she doesnt even realize that she's fucking up and when sumone tries to get to fix her shyt, Destinee(our one and only bAdAsS d.m.) gets kicked outta practice. Isnt it funny how that works out?? Nothin but a bunch of fuckin politics and power struggles. BiTcHeS!!! All of em. But it's ight cuz ima ride it out like a motha fuckin G, fo real. AnywhooO! I had a pretty shitty day at school cuz i was so tired and i try so hard in my classes that count and i just cant seem to do better. damn.... I dont feel like bitchn nemore cuz thats all i seem to do lately. And what u do is wut u are, and i really dont wanna be a bitch. So, i'll holla atch'all lata. PeAcE!

                                                        *~jess~*